Me, Myself and I

Feel like I already fallen behind, not posted any thing for the last few day (not a good start). So I got to respect out to all the blogstar who blogs daily. 

Last Friday woke up for work. Really had to force myself to get up and go work. Finally got myself into work and sat in a corner whilst trying to catch up with sleep. Well short sleep as most of my co-worker shouting the head off about some thing. Started to listen and found it interesting.

They had difference of views about “ Do you consider yourself as British or the country you originate from (in my case Bengali)?”. My reaction to that was you shouldn’t support your clams from the colour of you passport. It don’t matter if you have a “red” passport but it a matter of a fact were your heart lays. Then there comment is “why don’t you get out of this country since you have no feelings for it?” I got respect for this country and what it has provided me. It just a feeling that I cannot explain, just only felt. Its like marmalade, you either like it or hate it but cant explain why that is.

I will leave this one to you, what do you think?

There’s times in you life were every thing is moving fast and I think I am init right now. People want me to do this, other people want this and I am like “no pause”. I want to live my life to the fullest, want to look back in old days say “ I enjoyed it”. Take things slowly, doing thing for myself. I want to start working toward that very soon. Some time big but the problem is I don’t know what. I got some ideas like getting around to see other country but that isn’t gone be enough.

I don’t want a typical life like others. I want to be different because I seen them people grow up and end up with noting. Just trying to survive was there main aim in life. Voice inside my head scramming out to me “learn from other peoples mistake”.

I started to think about this when discussing with one of my work mate. She works for Red Cross. She started to explain why she is with them and what she gains out of. It interested me a lot and begins to wonder in my heart. She has some sort of control in her life and I want the same. She does some thing she loves doing and very happy. Shes has been different parts of the world and meet lot of different types of people. This allowed her to have experience that only few have got.

I want some thing along the lines of that. I understand what ever she enjoy it might not do it for me. That’s why I want keep myself busy doing useful thing. I am losing track of times and I just don’t want to fade away. So might as well be productive which is the harder option.

All I got to do is get off my backside, NOW THAT’S A DIFFERENT STORY.

Views are welcome!

Welcome welcome,

well what can I say, I never thought I would open a blog. I would never imagine I would open a blog but here I am with one. Well I am created this blog so I could pass some time and express my feeling some time. Just knowing that some feels the same as you is a great relief. So my journey begins….